Post by dillys on Mar 8, 2017 7:34:55 GMT -5
Hello;
I just recently loss my baby boy in early Feb 2017. I was 22 weeks into the pregnancy. We were expecting for the first time to be parents. He was to be our eldest.
It was a stillbirth. It seems that from all the tests done, there was a genetic abnormality in the placenta that cause a placenta abruption.
After a month, I have finally feel "normal". Doctor's tell us that it was a rate genetic abnormality and that is unlikely that this will happen again.
My husband and I were looking forward to being parents, to doing all that we planned with our baby and wanted this very much. We still do!! But we have been overwhelmed with fear!
We are scared so much of trying again even though we want to! Of course, we will have to wait until my body is physically ready but even talking about it; brings us doubt. We are afraid of going through this again; we are afraid of doing the tests again. There are some days when I think about the joy that our baby boy brought us during those 22 weeks and I say yes! I will go through all that pain just to have that chance; to hold my baby! and there are other times; where I think about the fear that I will have during those 9 months.
Please, I need advice. How do you deal with this anxiety? With this fear? and still be able to say "I will get pregnant again". Thank you.